Jelly and I are spending as much time as possible together these days. I know she is critically ill and I want to spend as much time with her as possible. She always welcomes my company. When I am not with her, I am at work at a job I found in Westfield. My job makes me happy in a strange way. But it wasn’t supposed to be this way. How different it will be for me to come home and find Jelly gone. Will I really not get another borzoi? Will I be able to not live without one? Will I try a Silkin Windhund, a very similar dog instead? Will I ever connect to a partner again? These are very scary questions for me to contemplate. Especially if I have to endure them without a borzoi. Will it be worth it to go on by myself? If my heart is ripped out of my breast?