Sometimes I do not know how I go on one day to the next. Much is happening here at Blyss. Some of it is very private, such as my relationships; some pertains to my life with borzoi, such as Lucy’s continued good fortune in the ring; some pertains with my colossal efforts to make serious changes to my outlook on life in order that I may be more successful going forward. I expect to do better in the short term going forward.
First of all, my borzois, Tresor and Jelly, are doing well. Both recently went through a period of harrowing, serious health scares. Then, winter has gone, and we are slowly easing into the rising temperatures of spring. It is April now, and soon there will be the seemingly sudden greening of the Mountain behind me, that dimension of ancient places, the Watchung Reservation, that I call home, in my back yard. Moreover, I have been called upon to do a job for my primary breed club as Show Chair for our Specialty show in September. Having spent the second half of the day and evening working on it, I am confident it will be completed very soon, pending the answers of some questions I asked of the President.
There is now a thaw in a formerly cold relationship but sadly I expect the relationship to remain forever in the past. My assessment of the man was correct when I said good-bye. I have further come to believe he hurts me so much because he, along with another man I recently loved, is a cad but for a different reason. For, like the Tin Man in The Wizard of Oz, he has no heart. I am looking for a different kind of partner for my world, one who may have some space in his life for a woman like me. It sounds so simple when put this way but this person is very elusive to find. Although it’s been easy to lose all hope, I will be committed to finding such a partner until the day I die.
In the meantime, there is the special beauty of Tresor and Jelly who make every day a special gift of love, grace and beauty.