It was just Easter on Sunday, and on Saturday, I spent the day with my son and his wife at the home of his wife’s parents with the baby, my grand-daughter, Piper Starling. It was a fun day because I got to hold the baby a lot, and she likes me to hold her. In addition to that, many people have commented that of everyone there, she resembled me the most, even some Facebook friends commented on the resemblance. She is very verbally precocious and charming. My son made a delicious leg of lamb, and I bought a very special decorated cake for Easter in the shape of an Easter egg from the very creative, upscale bakery in Summit, Natale’s. On Sunday, I was invited to an Easter dinner with my sister and her family, including her son Logan, who happens to be my God-son, whom I love very much. I had not seen Logan in about two years due to the COVID quarantine. It was a lot of emotional stimulation and excitement for one weekend.
I posted pictures from both days on Facebook, happy pictures and posts. I have not been well since my sudden, forced separation from my last boyfriend of one year on Valentine’s Day weekend. Last week would have been our first anniversary of meeting face-to-face, a joyous occasion, allowing us to be in quarantine together. I have to ask myself why I am such a loser in my relationships with men. It is the ruination of my happiness and my life. I wish it would just end and be over because I cannot take the pain and the loneliness anymore. The last one swore we would be forever so I am shaken to the core this time. He has since ghosted me. I don’t know how someone does that.
But I have my beloved Kensey, who makes me very happy. She is always there for me with her emotional support. Moreover, I will be attending the spring dog shows, both locally on the first weekend in May, and in Ohio, where the Borzoi Club of America will be holding its specialty show during the last week of May. These are reasons for joy. I will be among friends and their borzoi, and being happy. I will see many people whom I only see at this show, and it will warm my heart.
If only my boyfriend had not abandoned me in February, this could have been such a happy time. He is a hard hearted person, one has to have a heart of stone to act the way he acts, knowing how much I loved him. But we can only be who we are, and that is who he is. People do what they want to do. He needs to be free of the ties that bind in a relationship whereas I need to be held close and loved. And I still love him so much I could die of it.