I am not one to rest content. Instead, I always have something on my mind that engenders stress or concern. Perhaps it is a fear of something left undone and the inevitable calamity just around the corner, all my fault of course. Or, the unexpected news about something about which I should have known and already put behind me, with dreadful consequences. I can find a million reasons for stress, fears, and crippling anxieties. However, I am not as bad as I was. And I wonder why that is. Perhaps some of the reasons I will elucidate may be helpful to others who read my blog. Of course, these solutions include borzoi but they need not necessarily. It is whatever is important to the reader, as something valued.
First, it is important to know that problems in your life are controlling it, that you do not have a handle on your problems. You find you are ill, distracted, depressed, any or all kinds of various symptoms remind you and you may not even make the connection. Yet when you think about things such as love or beauty, you are soothed. Yet those concepts that look so easy to attain in others are impossible to attain for yourself.
It is a time for serious self reflection in the hopes of making self corrections. This is very difficult but not impossible. One must begin to include the objects of love and beauty into your life and learn how to eliminate what is bad or harmful to you. Change is difficult and requires great self-discipline. If it appears to be impossible, you may find help in a professional whose training you respect such as a therapist, a physician, a clergy person, or a life coach, depending on the problem. It is worth the time, cost and energy. So much is at stake for you, and it can mean so much pertaining to the quality of your life, you health and your serenity.
I know I did it by acquiring my borzoi and establishing Blyss Kennels in 2003. It demanded a life-style change and incurred an enormous expense on our parts, my husband’s and mine, yet we were transformed into an altered state of mind and body around them, working with them, for them, and loving them. It was strange, and nothing quite like that ever happened to us previously, unless you want to include having children. This experience transcended our everyday lives and turned it into something special, introducing us to new experiences, people and places. It worked for us. Even when my husband became ill and died, I stayed connected to this world. The benefits from it for me remained alive. I was not sure that would happen but it has. I believe it is because it was a commitment from the depth of the soul, the heart itself and the mind for me, perhaps too much so, but it was what it was, that this worked.
I do have help, from doctors and their widely varying medications and therapies, and I never deny that. But I find life more easy to live and that I have achieved a level of serenity not previously known. I think about Blyss Kennels many times a day, and recall Opal and Mikhailya, my two Majenkir bitches, and I know nothing can make me sad as long as their spirits are with me. I think, how lucky I am that I found Mikhailya through K S-C, and that she let us have her. That K S-C gave Mikhailya to us, almost strangers, was a fantastic honor. And, what a goal we accomplished to make her a champion and to breed her! Then, I think about Mikhailya’s beautiful puppies, all three, Zephyrus, Tresor, and the great international champion and Best in Show winner, “Magnus”, and I know I reached my personal best goals. It is like I have a glass wall around me against the meanest of others, or pain. Now, I look people straight in the eye. I am not afraid of pain anymore.
With this foundation, I can only look to the future with serenity and peace. For all of that and more, I am so grateful, for it was not that way before the borzoi entered my life. And for that acceptance and love, I have been doubly rewarded and more. The first step with Casanova may have been in the dark, but the journey ended in a place with the brightest of sun light and joy.