I can only say I got through another tough day, one made very difficult by a series of lengthy fights with my sister, all unprovoked. She went on a rage against me for everything about me, a total rant. I do nothing right in her estimation. She contradicts everything I say, all that I am about, and is against everything I do.
Only losers act like this. I married three men with brilliant minds but who chose to live mediocre lives. They chose to function at levels far beneath what they were capable of. Yet, they had nothing good to say about me, or to me. Why should they? How could they? They knew that I knew how mediocre they were – and by choice! That spelled loser to me. When a great mind chose to be mediocre, or average, that is being a loser. No one can ever say that about me.
I love my new boyfriend, but now because of mistakes in judgment I made by listening to my perverted, twisted sister’s advice, I will probably lose him, as I have lost all of his respect. Well, her name is now on the list of people I no longer talk to. I will spend more time reading, time that I previously spent talking to her. Like other former girlfriends before her, she will no longer hear the sound of my voice.
I’ll be okay. The less people I know, the more time I have to continue my personal growth and development – in the right direction. Not the direction people like my family want of me. The direction away from dogs, in particular.
Finally, the veil of sleep is beginning to gain weight, as it presses firmly down upon my head and shoulders. It is not like that lead weighted shield under which I must stand or crawl to do anything or wrestle to get anything done. I may be crawling along under them, but slowly I move forward toward my end goals. Serenity has been eluding me, but it will return soon, as more and more of the evil people fade into the distant past, are no more.